11/22/11
Are human relations really necessary? Usually, I would say no, without a doubt. But sometimes I believe they are. When I’m alone, I experience irrational fears and the inability to pursue a consistent train of thought. I always thought I had a high capacity of being alone, but I think that changed the more and more time I spent time to myself. How ironic. I do feel it’s necessary to have a little retreat from others, but I realized it could be unhealthy to be too immersed in solitude. I acknowledge I have a lot of forgiving to do, as well as a lot too be apologetic for. Cynicism and hatred towards others only brings me pain, and I need to start accepting that not everyone’s going to get where I’m coming from or think the way that I do, and I’m doing my best to confront these issues. Still, I’m so used to being in my little cave, I sometimes wonder why I should put in the effort when I can comfortably avoid being hurt, betrayed, or let down—an all too familiar story.
